How often do you apologize to God?

This week, I realized just how easy it is to allow negative thoughts enter my mind about...well, any and everything. Now, some people would argue that 'it's OK to think it, as long as you don't actually do it.'


Soooooo wrong!

This revelation crept up on me this morning while I was still in bed. For those of you who have been keeping up with this blog, or know me in the least bit, you'd know that I lost my job. It really hasn't been that bad, and I don't go around telling everyone my situation. Most people will ask "So, how's your job?" or if they ask why I'm moving, then I'll share. Other than that, I keep a low profile.

But, every time I get to that point in a conversation my initial response is "oh, I'm moving because I lost my job." Giving the state of this nation's economy most responses are "It's happening to so many people." Either that or their mouths just drop to the floor.

As I was laying in bed this morning, half awake, but earnestly trying get another hour of sleep, I began to pray in the spirit. It was weired because I couldn't stop myself. It's like something bigger than me had overpowered my conscious mind to the point where I couldn't even move. All I could do was lay there...and pray.

When I finally realized that this wasn't just some spirit but the Holy Spirit, I decided it was best not to fight it. So, after about five or 10 minutes I stopped. Just like that! Couldn't utter a word if I wanted to. But then, He began to speak in a voice so clear, I could have sworn someone was lying next to me and whispering in my ear.

I opened my eyes, just to make sure I wasn't going crazy or possibly still dreaming, and I heard God say "Stop telling people you're moving because you lost your job. You lost your job because I said it's time for you to move."

That nearly took my breath away. The next "logical" thing that came to my mind was 'how could this be. I'm not the only one that got the boot...and I know everyone else didn't lose their job because of me...'

Amazing. Just by my simple response to a situation I knew a looong time ago God already had the solution to, my focus was shifted from God to that situation. I didn't do anything wrong, but thought all of the wrong things.